Nervous....

I am TERRIFIED about tomorrow.

I am to be at the hospital at 5:30 am, and I go into surgery at 7am.  I took my medicine to relax me and help me sleep, but sleep won't be coming easy tonight.  I am terrified about the anesthesia.  It just scares me to go to sleep involuntarily. 

I have a cyst on my right ovary roughly the size of a tennis ball.  It is blood filled, otherwise known as a chocolate cyst.  That makes it a lot riskier, and I may have to have a blood transfusion.  As odd as it sounds, I am not afraid of a blood transfusion.  It actually is a pretty weird feeling.  Kind of cool even, but I was really doped up when they did it, so that may have had something to do with it....  They may or may not remove my right ovary, and will remove any additional endometriosis lesions they find.  The next step is the Lupron shot, which will trick my body into menopause for about 6 months.  Then we will see where we take it from there.

This blog is really helping me cope.  I hope a lot of people read it and even hope to give support to those suffering as well. 

I can't stop freaking out.  I think I will go play on my iPod and if I fall asleep then great.  If not then no big.  I'll get plenty of sleep during the anesthesia.

Please, pray for me.  I want to come out okay, and start to live a normal life again. I will post sometime after, and hopefully have some super cool pictures to share :)

Questions??  Comments??  Words of kindness??  Shoot me an e-mail.  I'm very open, so I don't mind answering any questions.  Plus, I won't have much to do while recovering, so communication is appreciated!!  I love comments as well, *hint* ;)

Wish me luck!!